Me...

I am done with Kid. I told him tonight if he doesn't quit drinking it is over, but really, I know he won't quit drinking so it is over. Believe me I know that you cannot tell an alcoholic to quit, I know better than anyone, but I hate him when he is drunk & the only way I could even consider staying with him is if he quits. I can't do it anymore, I can't be with him anymore. I just want him to leave. The love is gone, no getting it back.

I don't want to be in a relationship, I just want a friend with benefits. Someone I can go out with on a Sat. night, someone I can make out with in the back of the car. Someone I can send dirty texts too & have sexy phone conversations. I don't ever want to get married again, at least not until my kids are grown & I can keep my independence.

I tried to get a credit card online, I want to get my teeth fixed so bad it hurts. I swear, if my teeth weren't so bad, I'd be a flirting fool & I would so flirt with my crush.

I am so fucking scared. How the hell am I going to take care of 3 kids?? I was trying to figure out a budget, like how much my bills will cost every month & if I can even possibly pay them on $7.65 an hour. I know he is supposed to pay child support too but what if he doesn't? I guess all these questions will get answered whether I like it or not *sigh*. Please tell me I'll be able to do this??